mood = low..

All the fun shall end le. Just received the marks for my 1st assignment today. Got a 6/10. Disappointed. Seems like I could be getting one of the lower marks? It's not like I didn't put in any effort leh. Perhaps I'm really rusty after not touching any academic items for 2 years. But I was really expecting a much better grade as I was quite confident when I completed it. The 2nd assignment has got to be better. Felt really disappointed and ashamed today. One lesson learnt.

Easter Break is going to start this weekend. I'm going off for a road trip with friends but I doubt I'll enjoy it thoroughly, 'coz my mind will be full of studies. Mid-semester tests are coming up. And there's this biology module which is extremely scary for me, and chicken feet for others. No class on this wed, so it will be revision day! I couldn't understand most of the items taught for that module, and it is supposed to be basics! u sure its basics?! Throw me back to secondary school then, let me get my basics right first.

Anyway, I think I can proudly call myself the Microwave King. My cooking is mainly done using microwave. I cooked rice with microwave, cooked sausages with microwave, heat up milk for making mocha in microwave, and microwave bread too. This is for not having enough utensils & cutlery.

It's time to meet the assignments and notes le. Bye...~~

3rd time to Mount Coot-tha!!

I really love going to Mount Coot-tha! I like the car ride there. And when you're up there at the viewing area, the night scene of the city area is great. Just imagine a big cake & all the buildings' lightings are like candles on the cake. It's really nice. Not forgetting you can see many stars in the sky. Which makes the place good for sky-glazing. By far, my favourite hang-out place.

These few days has been quite happening even though we're all pretty low in morale. Yesterday we went to Queensland Transport Authority, but H couldn't change his car plate yet. Then we head to Indooroopilly where we have dinner & movie. We watched Remember Me. It was not a bad show but the cinema wasn't fantastic. It's cheap because we get to watch it at student's price of 7 bucks but the sound system broke down for some time in the middle of the show.

We went over to RSPCA to look at cats & dogs this afternoon and head down to Sunny Bank, which sells alot of Asian stuffs, for a dessert & walk around. Then we had pizza for dinner & watched a movie at kiong's unit. And then, lastly we head for Mount Coot-tha.

The entertainment part of my life here is pretty fun. Food is quite good too. Cheap & good. But I haven't really get down to serious studying. There will be more assignments to do & there will only be less play. But for now, I shall enjoy the fun first.

Points to Ponder..

This post is mainly inspired by wai's recent post. I saw 1 word that give me inspiration to thrash out my feelings. And that word is...good-for-nothing. Haha.

Why this word inspires me leh? It's 'coz I think I'm a good-for-nothing too. I can't think of something that I can look back & really be proud of. Nothing to make my parents proud of me. Nothing to make my friends proud of me. Absolutely nothing! I don't care about myself. Parents happy, friends happy, I will be happy.

And with this recent issue that is bothering me, the feeling that I'm useless is even stronger. Well, I find my trip here to Brisbane for studies is too big a step forward. I took such a long time to come out with this decision but yet I think it's not a good one at all. Dad needs to pay instalments for home, Mum is using her savings to get me here. Yes, I should stay but I'm sure the burden will be bigger on their shoulders & I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN. First of all, they're not young anymore, by that I mean, they should be at the age where they can retire & enjoy life more le. Still need to support me to study overseas? Big task..

My situation is different from most people. Every single step or decision that I made, must be more careful, the chance to commit mistake must be as close to as zero. I need to think of my future & at the same time, able to get a good job so that I can provide better life for my parents. 'Coz I should be the one supporting them now not the other way round. My parents aren't giving me any pressure, I'm the one harbouring all these thoughts because I think with all the care I got, they deserve better.

Which brings me down to where I see myself in the future? Dunno? What I will be doing? Dunno? I'm not really picky on what to study & what to work as. Right now I'm at a crossroad. There's many ways to move forward. But I don't know which is the better way.

But right now, I'm leaning towards a more practical route, dreams can come later. My ice cream parlour, wait for me!

Time to do my assignments! Keep playing games & haven't touch my assignment.. =(

no class today.. =)

There's no bio lab today. Woohoo~! Slept till 12pm then wake up. Feels fully recharged. Prepared my brunch, which is cheese & ham sandwich. A cheap & easy to prepare item.

Supposed to start working on my mini Major Project today. But i only did a little bit of research. Spent my time playing FM & going to Toowong to search for a cheap printer. Can't delay starting work anymore le. MUST do it tonight. And I met keith in Toowong while doing my shopping. He said I had slim down ALOT. Well, I don't really know why but I feel so much lighter than before, so I think that's a good thing?? But my interaction with him was only in year 1 or year 2 of poly, so I must have been fat or I had changed. Anyway, he was quite shocked to hear of me coming to study alone. Why ah? This is not the first time i see someone having this expression when I told them that I came alone.

Anyways...finally I saw some sunlight today after like 3 consecutive days of rain. But its not like today didn't rain, its just that today's slightly better than any of the previous 3 days. Hopefully, there won't be any rain for the next few days.