Looking through the old messages made me recall my life after my ORD where my oldest sms was dated. And as I looked through each and every message and start to delete them, the two 'outstanding' incidents bring back some unhappy memories in my plain and dull life. One incident was a case of forgetting a secondary school buddy's birthday. And my other 2 buddies and myself were discussing how to make it up to that buddy and try to think of ways to mend the situation. It was a good ending after all and I'm more than pleased. It's years of friendship we are talking about here.
And another incident was stopping the contact with one army friend. I made this decision after some of the things he said and now that I come to think of it, it might be just a rash decision by myself. It could be a wrong move on my part. Just like the case with shingo, I just could have done better on my part, I guess. Like clearing things up, be more frank.
Nevertheless, from these two incidents, I think I can take more positives than negatives from the experience. Like learning to handle friendship better. Perhaps the incidents are unhappy ones, but I think if you can learn from the experience, it ain't that bad eh. But last year wasn't just about bad moments. At least, I tried not to be a coward. Two years ago, I ducked away from you, hide in my own shell. I'm glad I decided to come out of my shell and face the fact.
This leads me to thinking why does human or rather myself, only get to learn only after certain things has happened. When things or people are by your side, or with you, normally tends to take things for granted, it will always be when you lose or going to lose something, then you will learn to treasure it more. Cheap. So cheap.
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