3rd time to Mount Coot-tha!!

I really love going to Mount Coot-tha! I like the car ride there. And when you're up there at the viewing area, the night scene of the city area is great. Just imagine a big cake & all the buildings' lightings are like candles on the cake. It's really nice. Not forgetting you can see many stars in the sky. Which makes the place good for sky-glazing. By far, my favourite hang-out place.

These few days has been quite happening even though we're all pretty low in morale. Yesterday we went to Queensland Transport Authority, but H couldn't change his car plate yet. Then we head to Indooroopilly where we have dinner & movie. We watched Remember Me. It was not a bad show but the cinema wasn't fantastic. It's cheap because we get to watch it at student's price of 7 bucks but the sound system broke down for some time in the middle of the show.

We went over to RSPCA to look at cats & dogs this afternoon and head down to Sunny Bank, which sells alot of Asian stuffs, for a dessert & walk around. Then we had pizza for dinner & watched a movie at kiong's unit. And then, lastly we head for Mount Coot-tha.

The entertainment part of my life here is pretty fun. Food is quite good too. Cheap & good. But I haven't really get down to serious studying. There will be more assignments to do & there will only be less play. But for now, I shall enjoy the fun first.

Points to Ponder..

This post is mainly inspired by wai's recent post. I saw 1 word that give me inspiration to thrash out my feelings. And that word is...good-for-nothing. Haha.

Why this word inspires me leh? It's 'coz I think I'm a good-for-nothing too. I can't think of something that I can look back & really be proud of. Nothing to make my parents proud of me. Nothing to make my friends proud of me. Absolutely nothing! I don't care about myself. Parents happy, friends happy, I will be happy.

And with this recent issue that is bothering me, the feeling that I'm useless is even stronger. Well, I find my trip here to Brisbane for studies is too big a step forward. I took such a long time to come out with this decision but yet I think it's not a good one at all. Dad needs to pay instalments for home, Mum is using her savings to get me here. Yes, I should stay but I'm sure the burden will be bigger on their shoulders & I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN. First of all, they're not young anymore, by that I mean, they should be at the age where they can retire & enjoy life more le. Still need to support me to study overseas? Big task..

My situation is different from most people. Every single step or decision that I made, must be more careful, the chance to commit mistake must be as close to as zero. I need to think of my future & at the same time, able to get a good job so that I can provide better life for my parents. 'Coz I should be the one supporting them now not the other way round. My parents aren't giving me any pressure, I'm the one harbouring all these thoughts because I think with all the care I got, they deserve better.

Which brings me down to where I see myself in the future? Dunno? What I will be doing? Dunno? I'm not really picky on what to study & what to work as. Right now I'm at a crossroad. There's many ways to move forward. But I don't know which is the better way.

But right now, I'm leaning towards a more practical route, dreams can come later. My ice cream parlour, wait for me!

Time to do my assignments! Keep playing games & haven't touch my assignment.. =(

no class today.. =)

There's no bio lab today. Woohoo~! Slept till 12pm then wake up. Feels fully recharged. Prepared my brunch, which is cheese & ham sandwich. A cheap & easy to prepare item.

Supposed to start working on my mini Major Project today. But i only did a little bit of research. Spent my time playing FM & going to Toowong to search for a cheap printer. Can't delay starting work anymore le. MUST do it tonight. And I met keith in Toowong while doing my shopping. He said I had slim down ALOT. Well, I don't really know why but I feel so much lighter than before, so I think that's a good thing?? But my interaction with him was only in year 1 or year 2 of poly, so I must have been fat or I had changed. Anyway, he was quite shocked to hear of me coming to study alone. Why ah? This is not the first time i see someone having this expression when I told them that I came alone.

Anyways...finally I saw some sunlight today after like 3 consecutive days of rain. But its not like today didn't rain, its just that today's slightly better than any of the previous 3 days. Hopefully, there won't be any rain for the next few days.

5th Day in Brisbane..

How's it going, mate? Time passes quite fast, & before I know it, orientation is ending & school is going to start soon.

Well, I wasn't that excited about starting school before I came over. And on the first day I'm over in Brisbane, I wasn't feeling that fantastic about living in a new environment. But up till today, I'm getting used to life here. Just that, I think my chatting with friends in the balcony is pissing the neighbours off! I even got a notice from the manager of the apartments.

Friends have been great. Know a few Malaysians, 1 Hong Konger & several Singaporeans. The feeling of going back to school is coming back & knowing some new friends certainly helps.

Been going to different friend's unit to cook dinner for yesterday & today. And today after dinner & a comedy session, we decided to take a stroll around the suburb, Taringa. We walked down King's Rd, which was a very very steep road. Going down was fun. Jogging back was even better. Next up, we went to Princess St, which was like a 'W' shape road. And we did all these at about midnight. Fun!

But but but, school hasn't been nice so far. First, it was the academic transcript issue. Next, its with the my diploma certificate. That guy just likes to find new stuffs to deal with me. And after yesterday's 1 hr 30 mins of meeting that advisor, the courses he arranged for me have clashes for my timetable. I went to school to ask him about the clashes, he refused to change the courses & he asked me to make sacrifice loh. Thanks ah! Good one! I'm sure to miss 1 lecture per week for the course, which is a biology-based one. And the sacrifice I have to make is sure to miss the bio course. The other 2 courses, only has 1/2 lecture slots whereas the bio course has 3 slots. But missing a lecture certainly is not helping me since its my weakest subject.

Anyway, having a dilemma now. Been wondering whether I've made the right decision...too adventurous? We shall see. Right now, I'm keeping my options open & I shall take things one step at a time. =)

life in Brisbane..

This is the 3rd day since I've touched down to Brisbane. Its quite a nice city. A different environment. But these few days it's been full of ups & downs. But nevertheless, its an experience gained.

First unpleasant thing I got here was not being able to get to my room. Imagine being here alone, not knowing anyone. And arriving on Sunday 6am, with no one working in the apartment's office. How nice isn't it?

If it wasn't for a Singaporean uncle, I think I prolly have to sleep on the streets. Haha. Luckily he got me to know his son, who lend me his phone so I can call someone from the office for help. And that's the first friend I know here. And after knowing him, I got to know a Malaysian dude. And now at least I have a few friends.

But the downside of coming here is, it is stressful enough to know that most Singaporeans who come over here are mainly scholars. And I got here, through barely scraping through, i guess. And the standard of living is quite high, higher than I expected. If I think I'm placing too much burden on my parents financial after keeping my expenses to the minimal, I really have to look for other solutions.

And after going for the opening talks by my faculty & my course, it only gets worse. I think the Professor in charge of Food Technology & Food Science really is not flexible. He say he needs my ORIGINAL academic transcript to help me with the exemptions & advise me on the choosing of courses. But when I told him I got the photocopied version instead of the original one, he still insist on me getting him the original one. Well, why I'm pissed is, I didn't bring the original copy with me. I got a photocopied one. And I don't understand why he have to stand firm on his decision on such issue? Both are the same stuffs, and now I need to ask my parents to send the transcript over just to make him happy with the colour logo of TP. Purposely don't want to bring the original transcript in case I lose it, & now I still have to bring it over. Haha.

Anyway, feel like joining 2 societies. 1 being the Singapore Student Society, the other one is the society for my school. Hopefully I'll have time for studies, and hopefully I don't have to pay. =)

Chinese New Year celebrations & flying off to study

This CNY has not been the best of CNY for me. My mind wasn't on enjoying it. My body wasn't able to enjoy it either. How to enjoy when I had diarrhoea from CNY eve to late afternoon of CNY 1st day. I didn't have a good sleep thanks to my visiting of toilet throughout the night on CNY eve. So, I will make this my final warning to treat my body well.

Putting the diarrhoea aside, CNY has becoming repetitive to me. After doing the same sequence for so many years, I don't really feel the hype. Maybe because collecting hong bao don't mean the same to me anymore. When I was young, I so looked forward to CNY because getting hong bao = alot of $$. Nowadays, having hong bao means getting the good wishes from the seniors. In fact, I had the idea of stop receiving hong bao when I'm 25. I'm starting to feel embarassed receiving hong bao. Its like I'm able to support myself le & if any peers around my age gives me any hong bao, its got to be awkward to accept them. But having conversations with relatives are nice. But my cantonese is still sub-standard.

By the way, this year I received 'lai si' apart from hong bao. It was meant to be good wishes for my studies in Brisbane. It was a very nice gesture from relatives from my father's side. Truly appreciate it. With the wishes, it will spur me on to work doubly hard.

I met up with giap seng on the 2nd day of CNY. It was great to see him again. I was afraid topics can't flow naturally after not meeting him for 8 years. But it turned out well. We ended up chatting for hours. And if it wasn't for dinner time, I think we can continue for even longer. I will definitely meet him more often. The first true buddy that I met.

Kenny came over to Kallang this afternoon to meet me for lunch before my flight tomorrow. Both him & rabbit got me a headphone as a gift. It came as a surprise for me. But then again, knowing Kenny, that's his style of showing concern. This wasn't the first time he did that. And we were even together in getting gifts to our regulars as ORD gifts, stirring up a havoc that set all of them kaypo to know each other's gift. And if I don't have things to do, I think we can chat longer than we did before he goes back to NTU for his class. In fact, he make the trip to & fro NTU and Kallang just to meet me for lunch lah. Appreciated. =)

Tomorrow will be the day when I'll be away to some unfamiliar territory for studies. Uncertainties are growing, my thoughts are flying everywhere. However, at this point of time, what keeps me going is the thought of my life after these 2 years of studies. Its what made me came to this decision. I'm actually gave myself a huge load to carry on my shoulders. Not sure I'm doing the right thing. But this is currently spurring me on & this thought is diverting other unhappy thoughts.

I just heard this quotation not long ago. Something new that I learnt. Here's the quotation: Being overly humble is being hypocrite. Anyone reading this post, ponder over this. So this is how being too humble turns out in the eyes of others.

大嘴巴-喇舌....This song just stayed in my mind the moment I'm hooked to it! This song so catchy, just listen to 喇舌 can le, still need to 喇舌 meh? :p

juz look at how lazy i am...

Haven't touched my com since my last post. This show how lazy & reluctant i am, to use my com. Got Ipod Touch mah, so can surf net on it, hence giving me fewer reasons to use the com.

So, I shall categorise what my activities for the past few 2 weeks.

Fun

Had a happening time 2 Saturdays ago. Firstly, I went out with huat & kit for a movie. So touched that kit managed to squeeze some time out from his insanely tight studying schedule for a meet-up. It was 'coz I'm leaving for studies soon, and thus he's willing to make the sacrifice. I came home after the movie, and not soon later, I was out again. This time, with cw, lil & yx to Party World for some singing session. Sang from midnite to the wee hours of Sunday morning. And I end up feeling satisfied from the 2 activities for the day.

Work

Finally into the last day of work. And it is going to be a half day. Getting really tired from all the work le. I haven't have a good break since ORD 6 months ago. It's about time I get a little bit of rest before going for studies. Talking about work, the colleagues at NTUC have been very nice & kind. They have been nice towards me, even though there's hiccups once in a while. And they even treated me & my buddy for a meal last week as a farewell celebrations. I'm quite lucky for the past 2 & half years. Be it army or in NTUC, I've met pleasant people along the way.

Food

I've been a very egg-y person for a week or more. In fact, i think its until today then I stop having eggs DAILY. It's a record for me! But what's there to be proud of?!?! LOL...

Exercise

Couldn't do any bit of jogging for the past 1 week after doing OT for the past 4 days. I will be so tired after work, but I'm going to compensate the lack of jogging with some badminton this week.

Another bit of exercising which I've been crazy about is doing weights. Terence was telling me my arms are very big already. Is it really that big? I can't judge it. If it is really big enough, I'm going to put a stop to this exercise. It's not my aim to become a gorilla.

Rings

Huh? What rings, I'm talking about, you may ask? Cheese rings!! Duh!! Nah...that's not what I'm refering to. I'm talking about the rings people wear on their fingers. I bought 3 rings recently. I'm crazy over rings as accessories. I may not wear rings often. But I actually have SIX rings at home. But I will not wear 1 special ring that I have. It was a gift I received, and this gift is meant to be a gift to a special one....

Haiz, no $$ already, still willing to spend $$ on these. Crazy.

And that shall sum up my life for the 2 weeks. Don't have a lot of $$ to spend, thus I'm keeping my life to be simple. Nothing spectacular. Nothing happening.

When fate comes, I don't take initiative. When fate don't arrive, I becomes emo....i don't wish to say this, but I really deserve it.

I've been thinking alot about whether I can adapt to my new phase of life after CNY. Keep thinking this, thinking that. I think I haven't study ah, I start killing brain cells loh.

Enough of all these emo-ness...

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